Don't Worry.

Talked to my Gos sis on the weekend (It was a convention :) )and we talked about how my mom can get pushy and wig out over nothing, but I'm still chill, I always think it'll work out.

Well Today I was super exhausted because of the busy weekend. In Sociology, My debate group didn't know what our topic was.

Hello? We've had a week for this? Did no one do research? Crap. Just me?

Wow, okay.

Well so I had to explain the entire thing, all of our arguments, and all of our research and how we didn't have a fifth argument, which we needed.

So I got home, all frustrated and upset and in a panic. I put on the homework playlist and the first song is 'don't worry, I'm yours'

And then I figured out, that's what a debate is all about. You don't have to know what you're talking about, you have to LOOK like you do.

And Girl, you know I'm King Shit at acting. So I'm all 'K. We're good.'

And now we're doing awesome. (Still going to do most of the project, but I'm not not going to Tae Kwon Do to get it done. That's not my problem, I've got my stuff done.)


Alice

I prefer to stand, you take your seat.

Bought a CD (Sufjan Stevens, Come on! Feel the Illonoise!)
Bought two books (This is your brain on music, Bears, Boys, and a serious pair of hiking boots.)

Got asked out by a grade 12 Girl,
Denied said girl,
got yelled at for being asked out by a grade 12 Girl.

Got made fun of for liking my parents,
Got made fun of by my parents.

Made tortillas.
Want to make my cooking blog a dual-blog with my other Vegetarian friend who has had my Butts Bible since she went veg :/

Getting my hair cut on Monday.

Love the Polyphonic spree.



BLEH!
Alice

Legitimately

Just got back from Cuba, which was awesome. Only now I think everyone is tired of each other, so I sit here on a Friday doing a History essay that was actually Due on Wednesday, but I got an extension because I can't keep up in my other classes.

Uhg.


Dixon and I watched Sybil today, and I bought my Mother's day present (The new American eagle Perfume, 15$) Plus I'll make her waffles & fruit - Mommy's favorite.
(Maybe those two thoughts aren't exactly good together. Mothers Day and Sybil....heh...)

During the part where Dr. Willard walks through the empty house in Willow Corners, Dixon half-shouted 'Alice, Where's your foot!?'and reached for it, but my legs were folded. Instead we huddles in the middle of the couch as she made quick-paced small talk. I told her nothing jumps out, like in the cat nightmare scene, but watching it for the second time this week even I was freaking. Didn't help there was a huge storm. Or that I had the lights out. Teehee.

Same goes for the Realization hypnosis scene. I felt like throwing up. When she wretched around on the grass and jerked away from touch my eyes stung and I wanted to leave. Or Punch Mrs. Dorsette and Dr. Quinous. What a bitch! If you see scrape marks in the vaginal walls of a 2-and-a-half year old, you don't let her go home to her mother! That's fucked up!

But Dixon's gone now, and I feel like I wasted a Friday, even though she was here for a long time and we had a good time, and I've gotten a lot done on my essay, and bought my Mother's day Present.

Everyone always hates on Mondays, but is it so terrible if I don't like Fridays? They're just always the day I feel everyone is annoyed with me. Though, Better it be Friday than Monday. If people are annoyed with me, they can pretend I don't exist for two days.

BLEH!
Alice

Alien

I took a quiz on Facebook and this is what it told me. (Well, this is the part that matters):

"Sometimes you feel a bit lonely, thinking you are unwanted or an outcast, but no need to worry, there is always someone out there, sleeping under the same sky as you, breathing the same air as you, and thinking if they will ever find anyone. There is always one special person out there made for us!"


..........Oh.






Alice.

'What shall I do today?' 'You should fly.' 'Alas, I lack the angel wings.' 'For now.'

Ugh, I think I like this boy named Trevor, but he probably doesn't like me back. And my mom thinks Andrew Wright likes me (Really, mom?! REALLY?! Seriously.) Well, I can't really do anything about either because Andrew asks out anyone he thinks will say yes and has asked out at least two people this year.

Hm, that sounded whore-ish-y in my head, but I suppose it's not at all is it? So what if he has, it just means he's a loving guy. but he fer sher doesn't like me. He told his ex that he wasn't sure I was into guys (Not in the lesbian way. in the 'undateable' way) and one of my friends, Ryan, told me he made a vow to never give a compliment to a Dotty. My sister and I apparently give off heavy 'I don't take compliments well' vibe.

Plus, Michelle S. already kissed Trevor and confided in me at how upset and hurt she was that Katherine liked him and wanted to go for him. She always does that to her! I can't even fathom why Michelle would want to be friends with her, when Katherine just walks all over Michelle. When Katherine saw that me and Trevor were getting along she started being all nice to me. Hello, I'm not Michelle. That's not cool with me. Michelle is much more patient than I am. (Yet at the same time, not so good at meeting people. Ex: Sandro.)

Anyways. Whatever.
Michelle asked me to please not fall for Trevor. Because she's 'over him' but Katherine would kill me. But she didn't say 'Don't fall for Trevor or Katherine will Kill you.' she said 'Please don't fall for Trevor.' 'Well I wouldn't break the friends' code.' 'Friends code? I don't like him anymore. But Katherine will kill you.'

Do you know what I said? It came naturally.
'Michelle, seriously. I'm Alice. When was the last time someone Liked me and I liked them?'

Even I know I'm pathetic, don't I?

Well, such is Alice.

Are you Happy? Are you satisfied? How long can you stand the heat? Out of the doorway the bullets Rip, to the sound of the beat.

Yeah, That's right. I listen to Queen,
I saw the broadway show.

And you know what? They make a point. Cast off the crutch people, It's time to get serious. I hate apathy! It's more of a killer than any disease! Not even ignorance.

I'm talking global warming people. Get off your asses, find out what you can do.
Change your light bulbs, set your temp to go down when you're not in the house, (Like 9-4:30 mon-fri. Think about it, who're you keeping warm? Animals survive winters, they can take 95F.) don't leave the tap on while you're brushing your teeth, eat one less meaty meal a week, eat locally (It's fall in Ontario and you're buying apples from the states? REALLY?) and here's something really simple that teens are good at: Write on your hands. Seriously, think how big that 9x11 is and how little you need to write on it. Get an agenda for the whole year or a white board or something, just don't be so stupid! And by the way, if you write it in pencil, you can erase it and use it again! Or get a recycled paper notepad at least!

I want less rain in the wrong places but more rain overall! Stoppit!
Alice

P.s. My birthday was yesterday; consider this my present. PLEASE!

Can we talk about something?

Adults. And being Bi.
Lets talk about those.

So this one girl who I met over a vegetarian site (Not a dating site, just a vegetarian site)is 36 turning 37 and I'm 15 turning 16.
Well wouldn't you know, she's a lesbian. She's not attracted to me, and she has a girlfriend but she's COMPLETELY freaked out by bisexuality.

She's CONVINCED! You HAVE to choose a gender. and falling in love with a man is 'completely foreign' to her. She told me that to be bi you have to be with someone and wonder what it's like to be with the other gender.
So I told her it's not the Gender, that it's completely not a deciding factor for me. I'm not choosing boy or girl, man or woman, I'm choosing between with that person, or without. If that's being Bi, then I'm not Bi; I'm indifferent.

So she says to me, she says 'Alice my friend. I've heard it all before. It's not about the gender, it's about the person.'

and what I want to say is 'YES, probably because I've said it 20 times in the past half hour.'
but what I say is 'YES, probably because I've said it 20 times in the past half hour.'

(Gotcha there, didn't I?)

So she continued, then started talking about how she doesn't care what the bible said, I said I was scarred as a little kid and was petrified of Christianity.

then she went all crazy on me, super anti-religion!

WHAT are you TALKING TO ME FOR? you're THIRTY SIX!
The last time we had a conversation it was about an animal rights group I started on facebook, and I got all of my friends to join and made this girl admin because she was dedicated to the cause. So she sent out +5 messages to the group within a week and people started to leave, so I told her I'd make a newsletter if she liked and she got SO ANGRY and she flipped out and threatened me.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? I want to delete her, but I can't while she's still talking to me....


Why do adults you don't know always shut you down? You'd think she'd be accepting, considering she's a Lesbian Vegan, and I'm a bi vegetarian.
Like, I expect the old ladies at my sailing camp who run the girl guides program to tell me I'm going to rebel against my mom and she has right to get angry and it's just a phase and that's why I'm vegetarian, but a Vegan Lesbian? Really? YOU'RE going to tell me I'm wrong? You'd think that she'd understand that what's right for you is right for you, or at least she'd know that it doesn't matter what other people say.

It's disgusting, doesn't anyone understand? THERE'S NO PATHWAY! ITS JUST A FIELD AND YOU GET TO RUN FREE! HERE you can do, or say, or BE! ANYTHING you want!

Just Shuttup and enjoy it!

Rain Dots